Lol seems as though I turn to blogger when life is not going brilliant...so many negatives lol.
So to the majority maybe I sound like a whiny teen, and maybe I am,a little. But when I compare myself to other teens my age, well I wonder why I need to be the one to suffer and lose five and a half years to being ill.
For the first few years I fought tooth and nail to get well. I got irked when the doctors accused me of things that weren't true. I fought the pain to go out. Sure it was hard and I had slip ups along the way but I got better.
Then I had another, this time minor op and all my hard struggle went down the drain...slowly first...
At this current moment in time I am a ghost of who I once was. I don't get out easily as I suffer from anxiety caused by other issues. I don't socialize much as my old friends pretty much abandoned me instantaneously 5 years ago and the ones at college well I don't even exist on their radar ever. I struggle with my bowels and bladder which tbh causes my anxiety, my anxiety mostly relates to where toilets are when I'm out. I feel lately that if they can't fix me in half a decade I will be stuck like this for eternity...
Positives are the new gp doctor I am seeing at the moment, she has listened to my issues and started anew. I'm on some new meds and should be getting referred to uriogynaecology. Will be interesting to see if they will help.
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